And the 3 month break is almost coming to an end. 

I still remember thinking about my summer and the many plans that i have for summer, didn't really work out.

BUT hey which plan of mine has ever worked? very bad planner.

as i have mentioned a million times, this summer for me was a pretty shaky and weird! More discoveries about myself and also my relationship with Him is very different from the last summer. obviously in a good way.

It all boils down to one question, what have we or rather i achieve this summer? Those plans that I had in mind, did it all work out? progress of relationship with our Lord, etc etc

I will remember this summer.

it;s back to it again.

wish me luck peeps. Most importantly keep praying.

He does great things

i like fairytale endings. Never believed in it but sometimes it's good to dream about ur own fairytale ending.

and so this is how it ends for me.

"so deliver us frm evil...for thy kingdom, thy power and glory are yours now and forever, AMEN." 

Adaptation. just getting comfortable then it's back to hardwork and back to adapting again. . it's all slowly creeping back into this life of mine again...sometimes you just wanna go URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the picture is blurred but beautiful. how blur can it get? how beautiful will it be?

and the first month of 2010 is over. 11 MORE months to go. 3 weddings, one new life. Interesting times for my family.

ME?

last year of Commerce. First degree. praying that everything goes well. meeting new peeps. more insecurities, more challenges, more responsibilities, more decisions, possibly a new chapter ...., and another year of growth in Him.

thinking about this year just give me goosebumppppss. how do i prepare myself. very afraid.

But He says "So don't worry, because I am with you. Don;t be afraid, because I am your God. I will make you strong and will help you; I will support you with my right hand that saves you." (Isaiah 41:10)

Jesus also said, "Don't let your hearts be troubled.TRUST in God and TRUST in me." (John 14:1)

and Mr. Sanborn after breaking his neck and being told that he would not walk for the rest of his life and will need the support for breathing said this, "Its better to be in this position than not knowing or having the Lord in my life. "

Strong jean strong. You have Christ. That;s all you really need.

Penang and Ipoh seems to be the two most popular destinations over this summer.

FACEBOOK craze. with photos uploaded. ZOMG. makes me heart go *dupdupdup * at one time.

it just sucks to know that you're not good enough Jean Foo, never good enough

AHH well. there you go again Jean Foo.

it's a recurring thought. Why should i deny myself of a lil bit of excitement and happiness, especially after this 2 months that i have been through. Gosh it sounds as though i just survived a quake or soemthing. BUT to me it has been a "quake-y" summer. So excuse my thoughts. Excuse me for being so over the top, excuse me for bein insecure, excuse me for loving you too much, excuse me for just wanting to be where you are, excuse me not being up to those standards, excuse me for being off track sometimes.

yours sincerely , JEAn foo

a person full of anger.

ZOMG.

why?

I DON'T KNOW.

where am i?

avatar land would be good.

run along now jean foo.

trust who?\

Dear Me,

So far you have been doing a great job keeping it in.. Just make sure u know how to release it properly. if not it can get nasty. Where is ur heart? Try locating it again. Try taking care of it properly and above all else, guard your heart Dad says. Guard it with ur life. Let no one snatch it away.

Yours sincerely,

Me

all hell breaks lose.

WHATCHAAAASAYYYY!!!!

JEAN FOO is so done with internship.

DINNER tonight with the lovely ladies.

AND i need some booze to boooze me up!!

I thought my week would end awesomely, but not so. issues arise just before the week ends.

OH WELL.

so it ends just awesome not awweomse-LY.

issues of life.

I thought it was made simple but nope again we human beings make something simple into something really complex and confusing and just frustrates the hell outta me only because i love. only because i was thought tooo, only because i want to share what He has gave me.  

why do i love? why do i bother really?

i don't know what else to say or do.

shush girl shut ur lips..do the helen keller.

URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i'll just shut up.time is of the essence. OF the freakin very essence..

Fearless.Tell Me Why. Taylor Swift kinda rock my socks.

I took a chance, i took a shot,

And you might think i'm bulletproof but I'm not,

You took a swing, i took it hard,

and down here from the ground, I see who you are.

I'm sick and tired of your attitude,

I'm feeling like i don't know you,

You tell me that you love me and then you cut me down ,

And i need you like a heartbeat,

But you know you got a mean streak,

Makes me run for cover when you're around.

And here's to you and your temper

Yes, I remember what you said last night,

And i know you that you see what you 're doing to me

Tell me, why?

You could write a book on how

to ruin someone's perfect day

well, i get so confused and frustrated

Forget what i'm trying to say..

i'm sick and tired of your reasons

i got no one to believe in

you tell me that you want me, then push me around

.....

Why do you have to make me feel so small

so you can feel whole inside?

Why do you have to put down my dreams

so you're the only thing on my mind?

.....

I take a step back, let you go

I told you i'm not bulletproof

Now you know.