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Name: Jean
Location: Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Birthday: 11/1/1990
Gender: Female

Interests: golf, celebrities, watching CSI, learning foreign languages, partying(never had the chance tho), listening to pump up MusIC and going crazee that's my number one!!!
Expertise: erm...eatin,sleepin and using the computer...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other

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Member Since: 12/29/2005

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Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Memories of the past...

So MLAO 2011. WOW. it has been 5 years now.

The only reason i went for the HItEa was to meet that very-special-aunty to me again and also Michelle who i have not met for 5 years. Yep thats right... it was since the last MLAO i played that i met them.

How time flies......

This feeling i have, it's WEIRD and i wish it goes away.....

This is exactly how i felt 5 years back and i guess it actually never left me but i let them go and tuck them away in some small pocket somewhere in me heart.

Oh i love memories...... sometimes.

When will i ever get to see them again......

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Monday, March 14, 2011

oh why hello bloggers.

2011. BAM! it's here.

4TH YEAR now in Adelaide and so many things have changed. Coming back to Adelaide this time was harder than the past two years. I came back to new beginnings. Practically like first year again! New people, new semester, more responsibilities, a whole different ball game. A year where the calculator is not a priority but highlighters are!

Yep i have graduated from ACCOUNTING ! phew. hiccups here an there but all Glory to Him im done! One of the major reasons why coming back to Adelaide was harder was because my one and only eldest sister n my broinlaw and the lil baby was going to move back to Brunei. Yep they have left Adelaide now.

I had the awesome privilege to have spent 3 years of my life with them and it was good having family around. Emotional support is always good when you are 10million miles away from the family (exaggeration). It was good catch up on the years that we've lost not growing up together because of the age difference, her being away from the family for her medical degree when i was only a lil kuci rat.

It was great joy to have a lil glimpse of her life in Adelaide and I must say she, and her husband, must have impacted many, that walked in and out of her life. They were basically role models and i'm proud to be the sister and sister in law.

They made transitioning so much easier. SO MUCH EASIER i;m NOT joking. They made my 18th birthday memorable. I miss having to go over to their place whenever i feel like it. I miss smeeling my lil nephews bum bum and tickling him , miss having to feed him and change his nappies(not an easy task, esp in his case!), miss having to give him a "rinse"(shower time), miss playing "peekaboo" with him and just miss being around the lil boy ! I treasure those memories. At least i can say I celebrated his first year with him and had many many cuddles with him when he was a lil kiddo, had chances to put him to sleep AND make him breakfast!

Bleh i wonder if he will remember this "ah yee" when he grows up in Brunei?

3 years of pure joy and happiness, I cherish! I will miss them heapos muchos. LOVE LOVE LOVE.
Those memories with my eldest sister are well kept and tucked in a lil pocket of me heart!
Now i have the lil one over here now! We are gonna rock this lil town and make a dent on it! Try tooo!

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Saturday, January 22, 2011

	I havent blogged in a while. 2011 oh dear. graduated from Commerce (accounting), going back to Adelaide to finish the other degree. IT'S GONNA be TOUGH! so many great friends that i;ve made as a fresher are leaving or have already left. another interesting year ahead? i hope so.
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Saturday, September 04, 2010

September 4 2010.
1 year <3 WsW

I've got so much on my mind lately that it has really affected my sleep. Going to bed at 1 am and then waking up 4 in the morning laze around in bed thinking that i would be able to go to sleep but NOPE my brain just says NO, it refuses to shutdown, rest and sleep and so i took a shower at 630am in the morning in the MIDDLE OF WINTER!!!!!!!!! That was one very special special day. When nobody knows what in the world is going on with your life even the closest of the closest. Doesn't know what i think, why i went through that sleepless night, until i breakdown and cry.
I debate within myself. My own thoughts fighting against each other like as though i have and angel and a devil in my head. Many times, the devil takes FULL control. Consequences--> cant make decisions, things are done halfhearted, associations with certain homosapiens takes a toll physically and mentally WHAT more homosapiens of the same faith, masks are put on to not show what u really feel, JUST angry and frustrated most of the days.

Sometimes there are things that I never understand especially particular views and ideas of some.
One minute they say this and another minute their action is THE total opposite of what they have just mentioned.
I never understand why people do such things and what they get out of it...
Walking hypocrites i call it and of course, WHO IS NOT ONE? I myself am one i ADMIT! But some are just worst than i am (who AM I to JUDGE? BUT....) BUT their skin is also THICKER like a gazillion times.

I do not agree strongly with some of the things that are done and BECAUSE nobody listens, or even if they do they will tend to think is not important, i DONT bother. I leave it aside and just see them suffer later it's like HAH in ur face you retard! A very Christian thing to do................NOT! See the inner conflict that i currently face. ??

Sometimes i wish i NEVER came here. Went whereever my close friends went and prolly pursue my degree in a different place, somewhere people will actually REALLY get to know you and not just go OH UR WHO N WHOs relative n just like "oh i guess she can fend for herself" just cause the other relative was a strong leader and highlyrespected.

As u can see, the heart of the blogger has been hardened by certain things in her life now but she was hit by a song on one Friday night-In Christ Alone-. Serving Him as they say NOT the people. How do u continue to love His people when you know u just CAN'T STAND or never really like associating with certain people in life? A question that really came to mind after learning the book of Jonah. If you can't even love the person next to you that didn't do nothing to you or never harm you in any aspect of your life (an enemy) HOW in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD can you love ONE who has hurt u badly?

If only His words could be applied and not only SAID and REMAIN AS HEAD KNOWLEDGE, i would be declared a SAINT.

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Wednesday, July 28, 2010

The final semester of Commerce(Accounting) for moi. Without the second degree, my university life ends after this year.

It just hit me how much i have missed playing golf competitively. I read and watch news about young golfers that were just starting during my "glory" years (which was only a year actually come to think of it.. or at least 3 years in total) excelling now. It definitely doesn't come easy. The attitude, the mindset, the sacrifice.

Working towards that same goal every golfer wants, to be part of the LPGA for the ladies and PGA for the gentlemen. To continue to strive for excellence and eventually be no.1 player in the world, continue to break course records, to be the first in everything to be in the Hall of Fame, to be on magazines, newspaper headlines, sponsorship etc etc.

HARD WORK. One can only dream (me that is) but has to snap back to reality. It doesn't really hurt to dream once in a while and think what if.I guess i didn't really have that attitude.

That golf dream still remain with me even though i know i will never make it there. That is one dream that will stay with me forever.

Something different and exciting than the normal UNIVERSITY, WORK TIL YOU'RE LIKE OLD and then RETIRE.

Playing social golf over here (not that i play banyak also lah) is good. At least i still get to play but it's just different. The lack of enthusiasm for practising (because like there's nothing to practise for-eg. competitions) and also no 'kakis' to play with consistently and the trouble with transport, my game has deteriorated and it saddens me much.

One thing for sure, I'm working towards being the person He wants me to be.(HHOPEFULLY)

True friends, OVERRATED.

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